Soulsearching

Pag-awit ng aking pagkabata

2005-10-05T09:25:00.000-07:00

Nadarama ko ang aking pagkabata muli
Ang sarap ng ganito
Parang walang iniisip na malalim
Lahat ay maganda
Parang ang araw na ito
Na di mapupuno ng kaligayahan at ngiti
Kung wala ka
Lumiwanag muli ang mundo ng ika'y nakilala ko
Umaawit ang aking puso ng kabataan
Nakalimutan ko na ang saya ng buhay
O kay sarap makamtam ito muli
Aking kaibigan totoo ka nga ba
Bat ngayon ka lang dumating
Di na bale ang importante ay nandito ka na
Queso man o hindi
Pero may bago ng kahulugan ang buhay ko
At ayun ay kasama ka
Natututo ba akong magmahal muli
O ipinapakita lang ng diyos na ang buhay ay maganda?

Just something I wrote out of the blue...Felt poetic after reading Marco's series of "G" literary pieces. Thanks dude! Its been a long time since I've written something.

Eye Candy

2005-06-27T11:05:00.000-07:00

Suddenly I see myself searching again for that certain eye candy that gets me everytime I think
Well, I hope it arrives soon. I've been nothing short of dead these past few weeks, Im physically weak (and sick) as well as mentally challenged (no not that kind!) Realizations are slowling taking a toll but good ones. Im finally realizing my worth in this world and although its not the way I want it to be, its something to be proud of.

School is getting really tiring, Im starting to fall asleep in my classes and when I get home, I get totally knocked out and wake up about after dinner. Gym was so freaking hard, I feel so bad that I had to miss 2 weeks of it. Stupid Flu!

She is still haunting me and my dreams, but Im happy. Very actually. Its great, if things dont work out then Im fine with it. Its just that I tend to think that all the prayers Ive prayed are a waste. God somehow gave me the strength to love her more and more. Even though she is Cold and that I probably have little importance to her. Well, love ko pa rin siya no matter what. And I promise myself that I will try my best to do what I can to convince her. That I am someone willing to sacrifice and to love her more than any one else in this world. Somehow I already do, its all a matter of being visible.

Anyway I just love the OC, its so addicting, you guys should watch it. Mischa Barton and Rachel Bilson are chicks!

Here's another song:

Smile like you mean it!
Save some face, you know you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young
Boy, one day you'll be a man
Oh girl, he'll help you understand
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
Looking back at sunsets on the Eastside
We lost track of the time
Dreams aren't what they used to be
Some things slide by so carelessly
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
And someone is calling my name
From the back of the restaurant
And someone is playing a game
In the house that I grew up in
And someone will drive her around
Down the same streets that I did
On the same streets that I did
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

How could you...

2005-06-09T09:02:00.000-07:00

I cant sleep, I cant stop pondering over the reality that is slowly sinking in my head.
I'll be gone soon, you'll probably be looking at a different direction then
So dont pay me any attention, I'll pack my bags and discreetly be on my way
You've always been my love, I've constanly showed it
Im sure you know that, you've just been playing dumb all along
But its fine, I try to bury it deep into the depths of my heart
And I will do the same with every thought and every pinch or cry of love I'll have
I've always been the drama king but every second is worth it
Because at least I know what I feel is real and what I have no one else could give
So soon I bid you my Last Goodbye unlike those whom I may say See you soon
I may seem to never want to see you again but the scars on my heart will
truly show you why.

How could you?

Im in the brink of letting go because Im tired, hurt and abused. But in the same context I dont want to be a fool wondering what might have been because I know she's the only one i've truly loved so much.

You know who you are and I know dont have to reiterate my words and emotions every single day.

Poem...

2005-05-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

Somehow I hear your cry
Smile painted faces with a broken heart
I too possess the same scars
Patienly waiting for healing
Then suddenly having you in my arms
Not knowing what to do
Except to love you the best way I can
I try to hold on to you
But then I realize Im awake
Not knowing who you were
And this was all just a dream.

Just another crazy poem from my head...

Back to school, back to school...

2005-05-23T06:08:00.000-07:00

I welcome myself back to stress and to sleepless nights... Welcome back to school my fellow La Sallians and I also welcome the beautiful potentials. Hahaha!

Anyway, it dawned on me that I love being single, I really do... Its just that I've loved this person so much and for so long but I never really gave it much effort. I now have to decide if I want to risk the friendship and the trust. But she should know by now right? She should seem my efforts. It cant be everyone else in the world but her that sees it My formula will be to take it slow. Im not in a rush. If I do have someone special I want her to feel the same way I do. Something like giving my best and nothing else. Giving everything. This should be something great. God is here with me whispering "Love her with all you can" and even if it doesnt seem smooth sailing, I just put my hands together and pray to him that it does. That im willing to endure the pain just to serve him and love that certain person.

Anyway No drama today... Just lyrics from a song I know.

Broken Sonnet -HALE
And now I concede on the night of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And now I will admit in this fourth line
That I love you, that i love you
I don't care what they say I don't care what they do
Cause tonight I leave my fears behind Cause tonight
I'll be right at your side
The clock on the TV says 8:39 p.m.
It's the same, it's the same
And in this next line
I'll say it all over again
That I love you, that i love you
I don't care what they say
I don't care what they do
Cause tonight
I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go, will never let go
I leave my fears behind Cause tonight
I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go, never let go
But still I see the tears from your eyes
Maybe I'm just not the one for you

Another apt song. Hale to Melodrama music!

Standing on the edge of summer...

2005-04-21T09:59:00.000-07:00

Here's a song to start with it defines how summer has been for me... Another reason why the title implies is because its my last day of summer, I actually have Summer class on Monday. Doesnt that really suck? Anyway...

Standing on the edge of summer
by Thursday

In this room I'm sitting by your side
Cuz it rains for hours and the phone is off its hook
Standing on the edge
Casting lots to set me up
Before you knock me down
Summer's edge and drown me
Betting on our own lives
Making up for all time we lost.
In this house of cards
We're all holding hearts and spades(one breath, one step could knock it all down)
You lead with your eyes and you give it away(design design to cut from the clouds)
When the people you love get lost in the shuffle(when you leave, you leave nothing but broken hearts)
Let it go and then you fold
So we stay on the open road
We drive for hours and still no end in sight at all
Driving in your car
Miss the stop sign
Fall in love
Just to get knocked down
Summer's edge and drown me
Betting on our own lives
Making up for all time we lost
In this house of cards
We're all holding hearts and spades(one breath, one step could knock it all down)
But you lead with your eyes and you give it away(design design to cut from the clouds)
When the people you love get lost in the shuffle(when you leave, you leave nothing but broken hearts)
Pull your punches and burn with your cigarettes
Pulled like a punch and burn like a cigarette
Forever...

Arent the lyrics just so apt? Read the red marks...

Anyway, tough days have been brought to us again, another wonderful person has left this world hopefully for something way better...I pray that you may be in God's side. Intercede for us sinners since we have no clue of when and how its going to hit us. I realized that people around as valuable, lets all appreciate what are friends give us, love them like there's no tomorrow, and if they do not love you back love them even more cause somehow you know that what you are giving is from the man above. For those who do not see the value of the love given to us at least try to appreciate it. Since God is not in any physical state to show his love for us people who do are created for it. I do not regret the pain that I feel when loving someone not for me, for I know somehow that God is with me. God inspires me to love even more. Who else will love them anyway? I thank God for that gift for it is in this I become his servant. I pray every night that I could feel the love of God. Sometimes I give up but then I know somehow that its worth waiting for. God only gives us what is best and why rush things when we can recieve one of the best graces on earth.

Summer romance

2005-04-10T05:01:00.000-07:00

Finally a break from all the stress school has caused. Although trips to school will still be frequent. Lining up and getting the most useless things, Course cards, adjustment, Claiming of EAF. I wish everything was just online. We live in a world wherein technology has grown yet we do not utilize it. La Salle being the "Techy" and "Premier" school that it is continues to strain and give no consideration to its students especially when it comes to things like that. Things could be so much easier if they just really give a little bit more effort. Well I still am happy that im in that school, its the best school in the world second to Zobel ofcourse! I miss High-school more than anything else. But whats more important is school is over... I should be having fun and im trying my best to do so. Whats most exciting about summer is that Summer romance that comes out of nowhere yet makes you feel so in-love. I've been mistaken by love so many times already and I just hope that somehow it wouldnt have to be wrong or even painful anymore. I want to feel the happiness that most lover boys and girls are feeling even if it is coupled with lots of tears and pointless arguments. I have this certain someone thats been in my mind even as a young lad but what amazes me more is that she's been bottled up in my heart for quite sometime now. So why not just ultimately unleash this raging dragon? Well, its not as simple as that. "Life is not a race" Definetly it isnt, thats why I just want to go with the flow and give her the bait. Love can make you stupid and when you learn a lot from experience I dont think you should fall under that category anymore. I am simply enjoying the fruits of life while waiting in vain for this certain somehow to hold on to me. The signs written in the stars are for you my dear, let me love you and I will leave my fears behind. Risks are made to be taken and im willing to take each and every one of them for you. For once in my life I have accepted that there are many assholes that will give you a hard time, they can misinterpret, give you prejudice and can be the most inconsiderate pieces of shit but they were made for a reason, mainly to make you a stronger and much better person. The ones you love in another case will give you the inspiration and strength to show those assholes that you will rise above them. They make life beautiful, pain is inevitable, pain creates you. My summer romance shall go on till the heat subsides and the winter breeze arrives. I will continue loving her till my aching heart denies itself of life. Ü

Just another day....

2005-03-12T22:18:00.000-08:00

It feels nice to still be alive after all the shit school has been giving. But school is fine, its tiring but fine... 1 more visit to Community Service then fridays will be converted back to gimmick days. Its a pretty good to teach those kids and at the same time learn something from them.
A more hectic term is forecoming, I can see it. Summer is approaching slowly and all I can say is Im glad it is. Im pretty scared about some subjects but I guess it will be fine.

I learned something new, Its not the complications that keep me from being with someone, its my choice. So im really Single by choice. Hahaha!

Congratulations to Kaisie for winning the recent General Elections for CLA Level Assembly Representative. Congrats Daddy! Hehehe!

Something new,

Love may be of some magical enchantment
That strikes all it passes by
But my wait is worthwile
Cause somehow I know the enchanment will be extraordinary
One that I've never seen in my life
But somehow I see farmiliar ground
Me sitting by your side
Fulfilling the many dreams and aspirations
That have drowned somehow
Ignoring what has been felt
Hiding it all away
But basically the stars have lined up to you.

Nothing can stop today...

2005-02-14T08:08:00.000-08:00

"I love you more today..." Hahaha! Isn't everybody sick of that song?Buti na lang we didnt stay in town.

Well I would like to commend this year's Valentines day for being the best I ever had.
It started with a few bumps and scratches (Right Ding and Mon?).Thats cool, I was with my 2 Brothers when that happened. But its all good... The damage has been done.Sorry talaga guys pero I was really rushing things so that things would be accomplished on time and another thing was that I was really really in a different state of mind.Pagbigyan niyo na ako minsan lang ako masaya,lam niyo yan.Haha!

Thank you so much to Eibee,Cathy,Jopet,Karen,Inah,Tanee and China for receiving and thanking me for the roses, I've never felt so appreciated.You guys really think that I would forget all of you?Ofcourse not! I love each and every one of you.

To the Addict, Thanks so much! You make me feel super. Once again I would like to reiterate that "I look into your eyes and I see something I've never seen in my lifetime,Iba ka talaga!" and "If there was a word that would describe how I felt it would most likely be 'You'" You know naman siguro na diba? Its obvious and im sure you do, your a smart girl. WRONG + WRONG=RIGHT (Yup! It can happen!)

Thank you also to my Valentines dates JL and Aby you guys are the perfect ending to a wonderful day! Sila dalawa lang,tayo tatlo! Ayus ba yun?

Nothing can stop today...

Nobody wants to be lonely...

2005-02-11T08:01:00.000-08:00

Ok, So im in one of those dramatic modes again but atleast I managed to get myself out of it for a long period of time.

Practicing my tagalog poem writing... Hehe!

Bat ka ganyan?Bat ka nagpapaasa?Gusto mo maging tulad nila?
Akala mo ba'y laruan ako?Ang puso ko ay tunay, di mo man makita
Di mo man madama. Tingan mo na lang siya, Mahal na mahal ka ba niya?
Pano mo na sisiguro?Diba siya nakakapagduda?Minsan naisip ko na
siguro nga iba siya, mas grabe pa ang pagmamahal kesa sa akin
Pero kahit sandali sana nakita mo toh, marami rin akong handa para sayo
Salamat na lang sa mga itinuro mo, di na ako tatanga tanga sa susunod
Wag ka na lang magbago at sa susunod wag ka na rin pong magpakilala
at magpakita ng konting damdamin sa taong katulad ko.
Isa lang naman akong buong puso nagmamahal sayo.

Asting tong song na toh... Nakakaaddict pakinggan dahil kay Soti at JL (team song nila toh haha!)

There you areIn a darkened roomAnd you're all aloneLooking out the windowYour heart is cold and lost the will to loveLike a broken arrowHere I stand in the shadows Come to me, Come to me Can't you see thatNobody wants to be lonelyNobody wants to cryMy body's longing to hold youso bad it hurts insideTime is precious and it's slipping awayand I've been waiting for you all of my lifeNobody wants to be lonely so whyWhy don't you let me love youCan you hear my voiceDo you hear my songIt's a serenadeSo your heart can find meAnd suddenly your flying down the stairsInto my arms, babyBefore I start going crazyRun to me, Run to meCause I'm dyingNobody wants to be lonelyNobody wants to cryMy body's longing to hold youso bad it hurts insideTime is precious and it's slipping awayand I've been waiting for you all of my lifeNobody wants to be lonely so whyWhy don't you let me love youI want to feel you need meJust like the air you're breathingI need you here in my lifeDon't walk away, don't walk awaydon't walk away, don't walk awayNo, no, no, noNobody wants to be lonelyNobody wants to cryNobody wants to be lonelyI don't want to be lonelyNobody wants to cryI don't want to cryMy body's longing to hold youI'm longing to hold youso bad it hurts insideTime is precious and it's slipping awayand I've been waiting for you all of my lifeNobody wants to be lonely so whyWhy don't you let me love youWhy don't you let me love youWhy, oh why, why, why, why, whyNobody wants to be lonelyI don't want to cryNobody wants to cryMy body's longing to hold youso bad it hurts insideNobody wants to be lonelyI don't want to be lonelyNobody wants to cry

...

2005-02-09T08:37:00.000-08:00

Marami talaga tayong tanong pero some things just really dont want to quit running in my head... Its kind of a mixture of poetry and the random thoughts in my head right now.

Bat kaya ang ibang tao manhid?
Ibigay mo ang lahat wala man lang "Thank you!"
Pero pag sinaktan ka nadarama mo lahat
Kahit ang di dapat gustuhin ginugusto mo

Nagloloko ka ba?
Seryoso akong tao, ewan ko lang sayo pero ako Oo
Wag kang magkamaling magsinungaling sa akin
Di mo alam ang klaseng gulo na makukuha mo
Kung mag papaasa ka lang wag na kasi tiyak na seserysohin ko
Di mo man gusto wala ka ng magagawa
Antayin mo na lang magbago
Pero kung seryoso ka man
Wag kang matakot,
Totoo ito at para sayo.

Feel ko di ako magaling gumawa ng poem sa tagalog.
Sulat kayo sa Shoutbox ko!

Confusion

2005-01-31T04:04:00.000-08:00

Ever listen to that song? Confusion-New order,Well thats the theme song of Blade, that crazy-ass movie. Sometimes I feel that way, so hyped up by some things that life brings me, but it has an introduction, a sort of warning, but then it reaches a peak where things get crazy and the things that you do are uncontrollable. Astig noh? Anyway, I decided to write something.

"Confusion"

When you know that there is no where to go
And your journey begins once again
Look around,
Eyes are looking at you in every direction,
Its just up to you to look for the one that will lift you up
That caring look,
But careful, things can be different
You are open to deception
Be vigilant yet open to the numerous possibilites
Dont be scared, you've been here before
I know its confusing
But if something will be of value to you after taking the risk
Then why not?
Its a process we all have to go through somehow
Your just more experienced this time
Making more careful decisions yet loving even more unconditonally at the same time
Your saving grace will be meeting you
Look for it in those eyes

Stressed and Harassed.

2005-01-26T04:07:00.000-08:00

Grabe... Solid daming ginagawa. I feel so stressed and harassed with all the reaction/reflection papers, dream journal, Hundreds of chapters, the trip to school and last but not the least, the most hassle of them all, CWTS! Of all the things that really tick me off, its the effort and time you waste to go all the way to Caloocan just to teach. There are a lot of poor people around Taft shouldn't we help them out 1st? Its better to start at home because that's where charity really begins. Oh well, I guess God has some unique purpose in that. I can taste the sand and feel the summer sun (Actually No, its been so cold lately) But summer is getting a bit closer and im really excited to get out of the hassle school is giving now.

Well let me give you a glimpse of my world besides all this school crap. Well lets just say that Im back to where square one, somewhere in between what is REAL and just a DREAM. What can I say? I have the knack for being in the losing end. It is ofcourse always surreal, the pain is excruciating but when you look around and find that there is more to live for in this life you feel much much better. I never expected this to hit back again, I though the fight was over and that the coast was clear. But like an eager bomb just waiting to explode it hits you at the most unexpected time. Mixed emotions hit me right now, the feeling of betrayal, pain, anger and the fact that the person you gave all your love and effort to is suddenly fading away. But then the feeling of seeing other people in a different perspective makes you value them more. Their value is suddenly appraised. All I can say is that its hard to feel so stupid, that after all the time you feel so above someone your now actually lower than the maggots that are rotting. The assurance of that specific fact in the past is now bullshit. Oh well, I guess thats life, the constant (change) is really accurate and banking on the chances of many things that may happen is really something. I learned something that, In life only three things are important, How much you loved, how gently you lived and how you let go of things that arent for you... Beautiful... Couldnt have been put in a better way.

Holiday Special... Or NOT!

2005-01-01T02:08:00.000-08:00

Dont you just find celebrating Christmas so Routinary? Its the same thing every year its just that your wearing different clothes, your a year older and something else is on your mind. For the 1st time in my teenage life my heart is BLANK during the Holidays, it feels great but somehow BLUNT and BORING. There was just No thrill, I had no special someone to spend ALL my money for. It was also weird because I was undeniably POOR this season. Oh well... Its fine, I'll live. Random thoughts are just boring through my mind right now. I really really want to go out. I didnt exactly get what I wanted for Christmas but I was content I guess. You cant really complain when hard times are occuring everyday. But I think the season should always be about putting an extra effort to gift giving, reaching out and really just emptying your pocekts for the sake of others happiness. Thats what I've been doing all along thats why I guess somehow, I feel conent and fulfilled. Not for myself maybe but for others. I hope that amidst all tragedy and pain that has been spreading all over, not just physically I guess, everyone is doing fine and is surviving. Blessed Holidays to all! I promise myself that my efforts will not drastically change but somehow go a notch higher in the efforts department. Happy new year to all! Take care!

2004-12-13T05:37:00.000-08:00

Basag na yata... (Marvin,JM,Me,Migz,Justin and By)

2004-12-13T05:34:00.000-08:00

Aby Goes to the Market to buy some Eggs A.K.A. Magkatabing Itlog!

2004-12-13T05:32:00.000-08:00

The band... You guys did a great Job! Thanks again!

2004-12-13T05:28:00.000-08:00

Me and the Couple! Hehehe! Joke lang! Eibee and JM!

The title itself...

2004-12-09T06:48:00.000-08:00

SOUL SEARCHING by Urbandub
say a prayer for me
i need a new life
i'm not blind coz i see the truth and the lies.

heed my words, listen to advice
you don't need to run away and take your life

no you can't live this way.
saw you go for miles and miles
and miles and miles and miles
destination nowhere, no means or how
so you go for miles and miles
soul searching, soul searching
for how...
j
ust take a look around
at the faces that you meet c
uz everybody's got their own pains like you and me
never fall away.

whatever you do
choose life
the thoughts on your mind
choose life
wherever you go
choose life
choose life.
saw you go for miles and miles...
destination nowhere,
no means or how
so you go for miles and miles
soul searching, soul searching
for how.

Although I pretty much got the phrase from the song it doesnt actually have the same meaning as the one I percieved it to be... My meaning would be more of the im looking for the right one,hopping from one soul to another... My search will have an end someday,I believe in that... Look at the picture...Same title rin...Soul searching ako dyan eh!

Shit! Last 3 days na, and dang is it hell! Finals are really really going to kill me! Pero enjoy muna tomorrow.Its my cousin's party and looks like its going to be one.Looking forward to another day in therapy so that I can get out of this misery a little faster.Thinking of FOOD again... Sarah nanaman kasi eh! Astig talaga that girl... She has an appetite, she's an internet freak, she's creative,dancer pa. Tapos manual chiq daw siya,gusto ko yun eh! Hahaha! Cute pa,diba Sars?
Anyhow, all for now.I feel so sick and I just wanna sleep ALL DAY! Tomorrow,Im going to have a blast...For show!

Bakit?

2004-12-03T23:40:00.000-08:00

"BAKIT PART 1"

Bakit pa, kailangan kitang samahan?
'di ba pwedeng hindi na lang sumama?

Bakit ba kailangan,
Bakit nararamdaman,
Bakit tinatamaan,
at bakit nasasaktan

`di ka ba nagsasawang kausap ko?
Pagod na pagod na ako sa iyo.

Bakit pa? Bakit ba? Ayoko na...

Why am I so persistent on Love? Maybe thats the whole point... It's love im talking about. Sometimes you feel like you have total control over it but then it gets to you and it really sticks... Maybe when you strongly feel something for someone thats how it is.

This is such a great song by Mayonnaise also the Bakit part 2.

"BAKIT PART 2"

Lumuha ka ng nagiisa, nakadungaw sa buwan.
Lumilipad ang isip mo, naksabit sa ulap.

Ngunit bakit, pinilit, kung ayaw ko'ng masaktan?

Sinabe ko sa kanya, na 'di parin nililikha
Ang katulad ko na parang timang,
at di mo parin maintindihan.

Malayo ang pagtitig mo, dala ng hangin.
Akala ko ay pwede pa na umasa sa iyo.

O bakit ba, pag wala ka na, ako ay kulang.

You see? Persistency... Why do we keep loving when we know over and over the same results will come out. PAIN and HURT... Time can reveal many things and persistency will somehow get the best results of giving your all. I ask myself so many questions, but I know its only I that can answer them. Its all in our hands...Its all in our sort of preference and the type of person we are.

Sorry for the sudden rush of emotions, I kinda got into my thinking mood again...

The lighter side: I highly recommend that you buy the Mayonnaise album but I doubt if you'll be able to buy a copy because its really selling like pancakes. Si Sarah nakabili so I guess meron na uling stock.Although Im still ranting about not having that free VCD of the Musiklaban.Kudos to Mayonnaise and I pray that they will be able to make more of their great hits...

Maganda rin yung movie na National Treasure,I recommend that you guys watch it rin. Its really cool...

2004-12-02T13:37:00.000-08:00

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

My Hero

I cast my wings again flying to someplace new
A place where there is no you
A flock once formed now to be spread
Fly high with me so you can see
Why you need to be the hero
I cant take these new heights alone
I need you is all I hear
Im afraid and its nothing new
My heart needs some mending
The pain just keeps pounding
Is this a dream or something rea
Can I wake up to find you there
The truth and the light
My bestfriend in sight
The peace that you bring
A feeling of bliss and joy

Thursday, July 22, 2004

Look here!
Can't you see the pain you have caused?
The pain which once you mended
I kept looking your direction Focusing on you
Your needs and wants
Isnt that what Bestfriends do?
Dont you even care
I bet you've been waiting for this to blow
So you could find an easier way
They told me to stop running after you
Unconditionally loving
Even with the pain crushing
Leaving wasnt my choice
But a mere reflection of yoursI
ts time for you to look here
See how much you've affected my life
Lets try not to be selfish
Love was ment to be shared
I've loved you so much
Its been awkward that
I just lately realized
Rudeness wasnt my option
A sudden rush of emotion
If forgiveness isnt your thing
Just try looking and you'll see what sort of mess im in

Two poems I wrote for my bestfriend...See the transition? I love her so much... I miss her too...

"There goes my hero... Watch her as she goes..."- Foo Fighters

The wake of the early bird...

2004-12-02T13:17:00.000-08:00

You tend to realize many things when you wake up early. I unfortunately woke up at 4:42am the storm had passed and probably the reason why I woke up was because temperature started going up, the heat was getting to me. Seeing the electricity back on gave me a little bit of hope. What to do, what to do? I closed some lights and checked if any were open outside. Couldnt find anything to eat so now, I am sitting in my computer chair realizing that I should have gone back to sleep.

Its the 2nd day of no classes, boy does that suck. NO SCHOOL=NO ALLOWANCE!

Another poem another day... These are actually old so bear with me. I just think they weren't really given enough exposure...

In the deep ocean of reality
I seek myself but find another
One whom I slowly learn to love
Afraid of being worlds apart
I hold unto hers and the pain is worth enduring
My tears pouring into extremes
But I chose to be strong
For I know this will all make perfect sense someday

2004-12-02T00:36:00.000-08:00

Soul Searching...

Standing...

2004-12-01T22:16:00.000-08:00

Where do we go from here?
I for that matter
It seems just like yesterday I was here again
Although it seems different
Much more plesant
But somehow I have this feeling that it will get ugly again
Have I fallen?
What's this light doing here?
It wasnt here before
What are you doing here?
Come to save me?
Who's that with you?
Oh I see
So your just passing by right?
Dont leave, I think I need you...

Oh well,here we go again... It's a cycle but we learn from it...

Pano ba toh?

2004-12-01T09:48:00.000-08:00

Kung ano ano nanaman ang pinagagawa kong kalokohan mag 9 na di ko pa nasisimulan ang aking paper. Dalawa pa min din yun.Hayop talaga yang mga teacher na yan, di alam kung kelan titigil! Hassle sila! Oh well,just trying this out first. Ginagaya ko lang sila Eibee! Hahaha! ;)
In a few hours HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARVS!